Obsession...

Hello everyone :)

Another week has come and gone! Countdown to the Big ‘C’ had well and truly began!

So my week was eh somewhat of a blur! After the 2lb gain last Thursday *Thank you Mother Nature* I was a little mmm…how do I say…OBSESSED!

Something has happened me in the past few weeks, I have become obsessed about getting to WW goal (and oddly enough the WW goal isn't even my own personal goal, that one is 10lbs lighter again) and I mean genuinely obsessed. And it isn’t healthy! Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not starving myself or anything like that quite the contrary, I’m using all my dailies & weeklies BUT I’m pushing myself exercise wise maybe a little too crazy….crazy enough for me not to have a day off to rest and recover!

I love exercise, I love doing something every day, I adore Zumba and you’ll always find me at the top of the class giving it my all (and all the jiggly bits flying left right and centre).

But this week was different. I had an extra day to exercise as I weighed in earlier than usual last week.So my week was consumed with: Spin/Core, 20-20-20, Zumba Masterclass, 5km jog, Zumba, CardioBells & Personal training session, Zumba, Spin/Core & Personal training session.

Some people may not think it is a lot *seriously I hope not though* but I think I need to take a step back and RELAX! I’m going to wear myself out especially as I’m voluntarily working in a Primary School as a substitute while completing my degree in Primary Teaching which includes sooo much study!

I need to prioritize a bit more. In today’s class we spoke about having more ‘me’ time and putting WW first. I personally think I need to do a little bit of the opposite and maybe put a few more things not ahead of WW so to speak but on level footing because my study should come first closely followed by my health and if I’m being honest my body is aching all week, my back is giving me lots of trouble. I need to cop on abit!

*this is what I need to learn to do*

So after the week of fun I had my weigh in this morning and I was down 1.5lb. Now in any given week if I was to be down 1.5lb I’d be over the moon but today, not so much! Yes yes silly Grá be happy with the loss! What I was hoping and praying for was a loss of 2.5lbs which would have cleared up ‘’that’’ gain and also given me an extra 0.5lb for this week! My leader Tracey completely understood me when I told her and I love how she didn’t chastise me over it!

I left my meeting with mixed emotions. On one hand I was delighted to be down and 9lbs from goal but on the other hand I was annoyed and felt that maybe I could have pushed myself more this week *I know crazy right as I don’t think I could push myself anymore*. 

I got in the car and had to pop to the doctors *problem with my foot* and I ended up having a kind of an argument with my boyfriend (who lives in the Netherlands) all over my inability to move on from the fact I had not lost 2lbs this week. I have a great boyfriend who is always there to offer support and motivation which he did especially well last week after the gain. But see Gráinne doesn’t like to be told things which are common sense like ‘it isn’t the end of the world you had a great loss this week’ I snap in defensive mode and get a little smart which of course I regret ten minutes later when it is a little too late! Anyway after this happened I got the mini wake up call I needed to get me to cop on a little bit more and also CHILLAX like ‘Gráinne for god sake you have 5st 3lbs lost! You’re 22, the world is at your feet, you ain’t no big fat ass girl no more, even at Zumba you probably look like you know what you’re doing’ *this would be along the lines of what I was telling myself, think I may have looked crazzzy if anyone saw me :P ).

So yeah this week I’m going to relax. I’m going to have two days with no exercise (this will be interesting as I’ll use my excuse ‘ah but I’m only going for a walk or a jog that isn’t really exercise *yeah it is but you know*) and I’m going to try and not stress about goal. The date in which I’d love to be at goal is over 2 months away if I don’t get it by then so what, it isn’t like the world is going to end or anything like that!

And more importantly I really don’t want to turn into sassy mouth Grá to my boyfriend again if the futures weigh in’s don’t go to plan! I’m building that bridge and getting over it!

Instead of trying to reach goal by a certain date I’m going to:

• Look forward to the 10km run in the dark I’m doing in November
• Look forward to the night in Tullamore with the girls from the Facebook unofficial weight watchers group
• Appreciate the fact that I look good in my clothes and even just standing in my underwear lol (in private don’t worry :P )

And who knows I may have a NSV like slipping into size 12 jeans soon enough :)

Goal will come in its own time and for now all I can do is enjoy my journey.

Today was a nice eye opener of a day and I went to my 20-20-20 class a little happier and more relaxed :)

*cheesy grin :D*

On a final note I now have a new favourite quote :)

Until next time,

Grá :)

P.S Have a great week :)