Motivation...

Hello everyone :)

Hope you all had a lovely day yesterday with family & friends :)

My day was great, my family was all around and we had some great food. I was up until 3am on Christmas Eve cleaning, setting the table and making loads of fruit skewers and just dancing around the kitchen to Christmas songs if I’m being honest :)

 

I woke at 10am on the big day and I had the worst sore throat and head cold…I got my tonsils out in Summer 2009 after my Leaving Cert and hadn’t suffered much since then so to have a sore throat on Christmas day after 4.5 years basically without I was devastated and felt miserable.

I had a good plan made for my day but was open to some additional bits & bobs. However as I was so miserable I didn’t go about making my own changes to the dinner as I would have had to cook it myself and I just didn’t feel up to it…instead I made sure my brothers and nephew and the 2 girlfriends (my brother’s wife goes to her own family on Christmas day and the little niece went with her) were looked after. My little fruit Santies went down a treat :)

 

So I had my nibbles, a box of quality street appeared with some after eights and some fabulous chocolate Brazilian nuts oh Lord were they good! I nibbled mindlessly, I helped get the dinner served. I had my 0pp soup for dinner but was a bit bold and had some unplanned bread with it, dinner was the works but I didn’t finish it all and finally desert I just had some ice-cream for my throat. Oh a sore throat will never stop me from eating believe me ;)

We all relaxed for the evening and of course had some sweets, me probably more than others but hey ;) I also had a few of these...maybe they outweigh the sweets ;)

 

I finished the night off with a turkey & ham sandwich on 2 slices of slimsters bread with branston pickle YUM!

The day was great, I felt disappointed I went over a good bit, actually probably a lot because of the sweets but hey it was one day.

I was back on track today despite still feeling miserable! The 15KM cycle had to be cancelled due to the bad frost which was bad enough as I can’t do much else because of my foot. Oh course I won’t lie I felt like a fat lump all day, I was feeling sorry for myself. I think because I can’t do my usual exercises I’m feeling very sorry for myself. The plan was to go out tonight and see my friend who’s home from the UK and others but I just felt so miserable and sick I couldn’t PLUS I looked like a pregnant lump in any dresses I had *cue self pity* so I settled for Christmas TV catch up.

 

But anyway moving on from the self-pity *why am I feeling sorry for myself I’m back on track today but I’m a woman and I’m a psycho at times*. I had a nice chat with my boyfriend as he was getting ready to head into Eindhoven for a few drinks *nothing related to WW or anything or how blah I feel* just a nice chat. I got off the phone and I remembered a quote I saw a while back:

 ‘’When you feel like quitting write down ten things that motivate you’’

 

Okay so firstly I do not feel like quitting my God the opposite but I liked the idea of writing the ten things that motivate me as it is something I have never done before.

So I actually couldn’t think of ten things lol but I have seven which is close enough ;)

1.       ME -> When I look in the mirror I want to see a reflection I am happy with, I am never going to be perfect but I just want to like me with and without clothes lol. As the saying goes ‘If you can’t love yourself how do you expect others to love you?’ and how true is that! Being happy or even content with oneself will make you a more positive person who is enjoyable to be around :)

2.    My relationship -> a relationship is made up of two people who are happy together. I have an amazing boyfriend and I want to feel happy and good within myself so I can feel good around him. Plus I want him to be proud of me and also come on girls you know we all want our fellas to be proud to say ‘she is my girlfriend’ ;)

 

3.       My health -> Having a weight problem can lead to many complications and health problems in later life. My dad was naturally super slim but started gaining weight around the time I was born and a few years ago he was put on numerous types of medication for HBP amongst others, he has lost weight and also doesn’t take nearly as many tablets as before but he always says how proud he is that I took the step to lose weight so I wouldn’t end up having to take copious amounts of medication because of being fat!

 

4.       My family -> I don’t want to be the ‘fat’ member of my family. I want to feel good going to family gatherings and also I want my family to be proud of how far I’ve come *which they are*.

 

5.       My future -> I’m training to be a teacher so I want to lead my example. I’ll be teaching children from 4 to 13 years of age and I want to lead by example and be a healthy teacher. This is one of the reasons I got back on the weight watcher wagon in June to go for gold!

 

6.       My future family -> What I mean by this are the children I will have in many years to come, do not want to be unhealthy, I don’t want my children to have a fat mother who can’t run around after them. I want my children to have a healthy outlook on life and once again I want to lead by example.

 

 

7. Family wedding next Sunday -> This is my current motivator as I have a lovely dress and I want to feel good in it so here is to being a saint from now until then ;)

 I was writing these down and thinking ‘they won’t make sense to other people’ but hey this is me being honest and I tend to write what I think so I apologize for the jibberish ;)

I’m posting this because it was like a eureka moment for me tonight, I realised I had wasted a day feeling miserable when I should have felt happy that I was back on track, I had a lovely day with my family and most importantly I am human lol!

Now, I must go eat my delicious and extremely late dinner all for 4PP ;)

 

Merry Christmas everyone :)

 

*VOGUE it :P *

 

Until next time,

 

Grá :)

 

p.s my scales said I was up 6.5lbs after 1 day...water retention as I'm a piggy but not that bad lol so ladies get drinking plenty of water it'll all help :)